i think one of the problems is that i think i am supposed to be above or beyond social or interactive faux pas (def: a slip or blunder in etiquette, manners, or conduct; an embarrassing social blunder or indiscretion). so when it happens, i feel really, really bad. (def: stupid, clumsy, unconscious, less-than, petty, did i mention stupid?)
ok so the thing is, i discovered recently i have a rather long standing resentment against someone, who happens to be a collegue. i have managed to put it aside since this person moved to another community some years ago. now shes back. and shes going to be teaching a class that i need to take, and facilitating a workshop im required to attend. as a result of another class im in, this came up, and my shit runneth over, via my mouth, and into the room in a way that then hurt another friend of mine, who is friends with the person i have the resentment against. now i have even more of a mess. and, theres confidentiality involved, so i cant really address this through the front door. in fact, im thinking the less i do the better at this point. sometimes i can look for something to fix, when its best to just let things be.
oh what fun it is to be in the village sometimes...