>>Why am I so desperate to have a good working relationship with everyone I love, and to have everyone I love be whole within themselves?<<

Perhaps you are really looking for the relationship with yourself that you aspire to have.

~V~

Hi Aschleigh,
I'm sorry to hear about your grandmother, that must be a difficult thing to be contemplating your loss :( When I read your post I was reminded of something I heard from Abraham. If this sounds helpful then great, if not, then feel free to toss it out, but it made sense to me when I heard it....

I'm paraphrasing, but basically....Abraham said that as human beings we are all trying to connect to our Source more fully - which is what wholeness would feel like. We sort of remember what wholeness was like before we came here and we want to get back there, so we navigate our way through life trying to connect to that more and more. Following what makes us feel better and better is the path to connection, according to Abraham. Death is an automatic full reconnection to Source/wholeness, and dying sort of solves this human life dilemma of seeking to become whole again. So while missing and grieving over the loss of your grandmother may be an inevitable part of losing her, I guess I'm speaking to the part of you that said it pains you to know she will never have the chance to become whole. Perhaps she did her best to heal, and maybe she wasn't able to get to where she wanted to be, or to the peace that you would have wanted for her in this lifetime. But perhaps her wounds will be healed/she'll reconnect and reach that wholeness when she dies. Don't know if that helps, but it was a helpful idea to me.

I don't know that we can ever be fully connected and whole while we are human, and all we can do is make the journey and strive for more and more connectedness.

I liked your thought that each person is a piece of you and a reflection of who you are. That was helpful for me to read today.

heres another perspective on wholeness you might consider... imagine the Light of wholeness hitting the prism of human perception, and exploding into a zillion colors and flavors of the rainbow... all of it still exists within the whole, none exists outside of that, yet we begin to label, and as a result judge, light and dark, black and white and gray. we start to think that one part of the rainbow is better, or more divine, or more whole than another, when in truth its not, that just our perception... it comes back to We Are One i think, and my job is not necessarily to be able to see the whole in each piece, but o see the whole AS each piece, to know that it all comes together in some magnificent cosmic tapestry, and even though sometimes all i can see are strings and knots, it doesnt mean the tapestry isnt there, only that i cant see it... our job then is not to seek what we canot see, but to know what we cannot see...

Love to you and your grandmother…sounds like a painful time.

“My grandma is sick and dying. She is also a hurt, broken women.” Perhaps there’s a part of her that is whole as well? E.g. did she love people, or was she loved by others? If she did, wouldn’t that part be wholeness? Perhaps choose to see the wholeness in her as well as the broken part and you may see the wholeness in yourself. Sometimes it starts from recognising it from the outside to reach the inside, sometimes it is the other way around. And sometimes, the 'broken part' is a different colour of the rainbow of wholeness...fwiw

Yes, this is a bit of a trippy topic.

I'm taking time to trip on each response in the discussion.

All very well formed.

Good topic!

It's important to tell people we love them. SOmetimes our words can leave people whole and complete. Words like "I love you just because I do" work. Or telling that you care and love them enoguh to bring their love to this conversation can mean a lot toward having them be whole. You are whole, and a truly loving selfless giver to have brought this here. I'm thankfull that you shared this with us, and have grown through your words.

Sorry for your Grandmother. I hope she knows that you love her.