I see that alot of New Age psycho pop stuff and even spiritual teachings can be hindrances along the path..more information to bind oneself with instead of going within and listening to self to body...to heart...

In seeking for peace I sooo went out there for soo many years and though it has been eye opening and exciting I also see for me how easy it is to not trust my self but listen to gurus read books books books...and forget what it is that I need..in this moment...
My intellect easily rationalises something and then I miss the feeling behind it and it just keeps coming back bigger and louder until it cannot be brushed over in any guises of "understanding".

Recently Iam noticing how quick I still am to ..to feel wrong..in some challenging communication issues ..I have been working hard at telling myself this is not so..but I realise Iam missing the feeling...to acknowledge the feeling and feel it fully then it goes all by itself..and clears the way...some schools of thought say not to get stuck in the emotions(which I have a tendency towards) so I tend to do the opposite and not feel it at all...heh...
There is a delicate dance between choosing new behaviours that are not extreme..bcos one has been sitting in one way of being that it can be desirable to go to the other end of that..but it's the middle path that works and flows...yet Iam too aware that sometimes the metranome swings radically left to right right to left until it finds balance and that also is part of the process to be loved...

Through violent storms and peaceful dawns we find ourselves in balance...